Update: It's Been Five Months Since I Quit My Job

On April 25, 2018, I shared a post on social media about how I made the decision to walk away from my job on March 30, 2018. The decision to resign did not come easily nor did it come overnight. After toiling with the idea for several months, I eventually received the peace I was seeking in order to take this major leap, and shortly thereafter I submitted a three week notice to my former employer. Leading up to that very moment, my husband encouraged me on many occasions to quit my job due to the level of stress and discontentment my job was causing, but being the very conventional person I was, I couldn’t conceive of that idea knowing I did not have another job lined up.

However, with my husband’s support and God’s peace, I knew it was time. Six years of maintaining a high stress job had come to an end. The days of driving to work with tears welling up in my eyes were over; the idea of remaining in a job that was intolerable and unbearable was no more. For the first time in years, what felt like the weight of the world, was lifted off my shoulders.

Presently, it has been five months since I walked away from my job and thus far the journey has been life changing. I know that sounds a bit dramatic, but fortunately enough, there is no extra fluff there; however, let me fully clarify on exactly what this “life change” looks like. When I first left my job, I did not have a clue on what my next steps were going to be. I did not have a plan A, B or C nor did I set aside time to create one, but what I did know was that I needed a break. Also, I felt it was a suitable time to finally create and develop my blog, so I did that!

Each day, I created my own schedule and did whatever I wanted to do and anything I didn’t want to do, well I didn’t do! I was exercising my freedom and in that I began to learn a lot about myself as well as others. Leaving my job put me in a position to grow in ways I didn’t even know growth was needed; to fully trust God with the unknown, while also obtaining some sort direction along the way. Now, don’t get me wrong, every day was not filled with sunshine, rainbows and cupcakes, but even in my moments of uncertainty, frustration and sometimes variations of despondency, I never regretted my decision. This ultimately caused me to just trust God even more.

So, the more I trusted, the more He pruned me, the more He stretched me, and the more He created situations and circumstances that would push me towards internal elevation. Everything I have become in the past five months, is everything I would want to be for myself and for those who are near and dear to me. Have I fully arrived? Absolutely not! This is only the beginning. What I have come to recognize and appreciate is that my decision to leave my job was bigger than my tears, my stress and discontentment. Instead, it was more about a time for me to effectively evolve with little to no distractions.

In terms of pursuing a new career, I am seeking one daily in hopes that a door will open, but it has to be the right door. I have not approached this job search with a long list of “must haves” and I have become quite open to exploring various career paths, but I will not settle. This is one avenue of life that I am not concerned about as I am extremely confident that what is for me, will not pass me by. Prior to leaving my job, I did not think in this manner. I worried about everything, but again as a part of my growth, I have truly learned to trust the process. Of course, in my current job search, there are times it becomes exasperating; as some days it feels as if I am aimlessly searching, but the frustration never lasts. My faith always overrides and my peace remains intact.

I wish I had the ability to determine what the next few months will look like or what next month will bring, but I am unsure and that is okay. I am ready to continue on with my journey, whatever that is and whatever that may be for Tonya Callender.

To Be Continued…